Short version: My cousin ran 23:12:48 in her first 100, second ultra, and I'm very glad to have been there.
Maybe that's enough? It's not my race, after all, and so--in many respects--not my story. But I'll indulge a little, because everyone gets a platform, and this is mine.
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The long version could start in a truck, a couple medium-long trail runs she and I shared a few months ago, or maybe a few years back, in the breakfast area of a Colby, KS Holiday Inn, after I'd returned from splitting a headwind--both ways, I swear--for three hours. This is a way of saying I might be one of--though not the most prominent--the reasons she runs in the first place, and maybe it's important to establish that, because people always begin with the why.
I mean, Billy Yang just posted a movie talking about it, named after that phenomenon, and people were talking about it all around the race. Hundreds are dumb, but people do them--about twice as many try and fail, including me--and so that impetus becomes a curiosity, not just to those who "Don't even like to drive that far!" but to those who get it themselves.
This is what people mean when they talk about starting stories at the beginning. It goes beyond simple chronological comfort, and is more about the instigating action. That is, why this book, this movie, this race, right now? You could have written about anything, or spent your weekend either running normal distances or doing something decidedly less extremely bipedal.
So. I don't know. It would make a better story if I somehow caused all of this, and then paced the last 50. People like stories that bring things back around, as it were. But I already said this isn't my story, not really, and so I can't write it a certain way, and I don't know why she signed up for the race, or ran the volume she did in training.
But then, I also kind of do, and you probably do as well, if you've chanced upon this. The world is big and beyond our control, but some sliver of it does belong to us, and so every day--or nearly so--we make ourselves do this thing, a statement of control where we otherwise lack so much. Sometimes, we seek the limits of that power, whether in terms of speed, distance, or at the confluence of the two.
This is to say: It's not something she could explain to me, nor could I foist an explanation on her, but we were understood. I think that matters. I would say "mattered" except the pacing was not the thing, so much as a manifestation of it. The thing is the mileage and the race and everyone standing around and pissing in the woods and bleeding and cursing and dying and living. The thing is understanding and home, honesty and pain, honesty in pain.
But I mean, I was just there. Living it, in part, and breathing it in. Getting it. But I haven't been on the other side of 50, myself, and now she has. Maybe you know what it's like, and so she and you could nod at one another and know, while also knowing that you no longer know, because the experience is the moment, and memory fleeting fictions.
So, yeah. I was there. I jogged in the woods and we got it done and I've said a lot but only circuitously. The thing is the thing in the middle around which words circle but cannot encompass. The thing is what happened. Near as I can tell, this is how it went.
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Miles 1-25 passed in the faint drizzle, the kind of omni-directional wet that can hardly be called raining. She ran it all, not because she thought it was wise to do so, but because she knew she would. If that seems circular, well, it wasn't a looped course, so I can't even make that metaphor. Still, she had trained to run, and run a lot, and so she wanted to run. 25 miles was not far and it passed in 4:33:09. Easy.
Miles 26-50 were a different kind of wet, the kind with both direction--down--and intent. Standing at an aid station, I watched the runners come, checking the bottoms of their shoes for mud, the backs of their calves for splatter. There was some of each, then more. I cursed too much. Still, she ran the whole thing again, this time in 5:00:32. The mud had slowed her a little, and now she was willing to walk a little, too. It might be tempting to say this pacing was a mistake, but it was not done in error. She knew she couldn't run the whole way. She still wanted to run the first half. She knew people would tell her that was a bad idea. Still, her race, she did what she wanted, always mindful of what the consequences might be.
Miles 51-75 were slower, 6:25:13. We walked a bit, mostly where the dirt road sections, which--frustratingly--would have been easy running otherwise, were sloppy and slippery. For the first half, we talked a lot. For the second half, we were almost silent. The next to last aid station--Damnation, it was called--preceded a long and lonely out and back, at the far end of which you had to check in. It got dark, and it would be tempting, here, to extrapolate from that and suggest her spirits fell correspondingly. That wasn't it, though. It was a bonk. Mundane as can be. The check in point had only gels and Tailwind, both of which her stomach had rejected earlier in the day, and she wasn't willing to try them again. She also hadn't brought much food from Damnation, and I hadn't insisted, not knowing what the next not-quite aid station was like. I was, as you'd expect, not thrilled with myself. Nine miles on the wrong end of a 100, without calories, will put you in a ditch. Damnation was Salvation, though. Potatoes and any concentrated carb she could chew and we were slopping back towards a stretch of relatively dry and runnable trail. I was curious to see if she would recover--physically and otherwise--well enough to run, because that would go a long way in deciding what this race would be. She got better, and quickly. We ran a lot of the last eight or so miles.
Miles 76-100 took 7:13:54, owing to more and slower walking, much of it careful. The challenge, of course, was determining how much pushing was wise, given that a finish was essentially a given--barring injury--and sub-24 didn't exactly require hammering. I spent most of this loop a few yards in front of her, keyed in on the sound of footsteps. I'd jog when she did; I'd walk when she walked. Some pacers, I know, take more of an impetus, but I thought this the right course for this race at this time. Every aid station communicated the--relative!--ease with which she'd dip under 24, and it didn't strike me as the usual "You got this!" platitudes. It was math. If we were moving, and ran at all, it would happen. And she did run, what felt like more miles to me than the time suggests. Maybe I was getting tired, I'm not sure, though I certainly never felt it. There's a kind of focus you get when racing, and different--but no less acute--kind you get when someone else's race somewhat depends on you. I was, thus, pretty goddamn hyper, and intent to make sure the previous loop's bonk wasn't repeated. It wasn't. Damnation passed for the last time, and there was only the matter of running to the last aid station, where her dad and brother were waiting. They told me after that the time between runners was astonishing, more so even than I'd warned them it would be. (They were both surprised how much of the--to them--crazy phenomenon I'd predicted. Predictably, I was not surprised, and wasn't surprised about my lack of surprise. There's no knowing until you know.) Still, once there, we didn't take long. We had 1:45 or so to cover four miles, so it was--for all practical purposes--done. Or it seemed that way to me. She hurt, and pain demands present attention, so we weren't going to be done until we were done. We ran most of the way. She asked if this was smart: "What if I roll an ankle and have to crawl to the finish?" I just said that nothing about a 100 was smart, and we should do whatever felt good. Noting my poor word choice, she said nothing felt good, so it might as well get done faster. In any case, if she had to crawl, she'd do that. She didn't have to, though.
Done in 23:12:48
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We ran a mile Monday morning, and apart from some swollen ankles, she felt fine. Happy with her performance and execution, and what it had done to her. Too much running early? Maybe, but her eyes were open. Trouble with engineered nutrition and the bulk of solid food needed to manage 100 miles? Yeah, but she'd seen that coming as well. These were things to improve without additional fitness, which makes them attractive, maybe even easy (or at least simple). Even while talking about how she'd do better, she said she wasn't eager to try another. Still, there was enthusiasm in her speculation, and the only way to know is to know. She has a Western States ticket now, at least, and it will go in the lottery. If her 2% manifests, that speculation will no longer be idle, and I'll get to see the last half of a pretty famous course.
Regardless, this was one of the more satisfying things I've ever been a part of. And no matter what happens, she's done a 100, and done it in less than 24-hours. That isn't going away.
